Trapped
thoughts circling
continuous
never stopping
 Lost
fears gaining
persistent
peace waitingÂ
 Scared
heart pounding
always
hope longing
 Stuck
body tingling
constant
ideas triggering
 Angry
fists clenching
forever
tense feeling
 Weep
mind lying
endless
eyes crying
 Stop
voices talking
eternal
sound mocking
 Free
soul escaping
moment
for taking
I have always been an anxious, nervous person ever since I was a child. I rarely find moments of complete calm, when my mind is quiet and I’m at peace (these moments are like rare gems to me, and I am always grateful for them). I have become adapt to being in an anxious state, in fact, for me it just feels like who I am. It never posed any problems for me up until a few months ago when I experienced my first anxiety attack. It was the most terrifying experience I have ever had. I liken it to being on a roller coaster, going 100km without a harness, and then free falling continuously for hours. My heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest, I couldn’t breathe, I was hot and cold, shivering and tense. It’s the strangest feeling having your mind tell you you’re dying while at the same time telling you your fine, calm down its just anxiety. I wrote this poem about how it feels to be trapped in a state of illogical panic and the moment you break free and feel normal again.Â