Ambivalence. Most people may view ambivalence as a hinderance, but for me it has been a great gift. I first learned the word when I was about twelve after watching Girl, Interrupted. Since I was young I always had very conflicting feelings/views about many things. These feelings tended to create high levels of anxiety, because I just wanted to feel/think one thing at a time not many. When I learned of this word Ambivalence I knew that this is what I had been struggling with. As I learned more about the word and my feelings I realized not to fight this ambivalence. In fact having such love/hate feelings about things actually was helping me on my philosophical journey. Such opposing thoughts really helped rip me apart at my core(in a good way). Being pulled in two different directions aided me in learning that there is no direction. I still have bouts ambivalence but I just give into it, I don’t dwell on the fact that I have them. I let the feelings tear me apart and in turn the ambivalence is destroyed too, and I am left with a greater sense of being.
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Words…..good work! You’ve learned a valuable life lesson by learning how to use ambivalence to your advantage. For most folks, it’s not possible, as most folks regard introspection in the same light as dumpster diving; it’s not something they are in the habit of doing. I’ll be following your work, and I look forward to seeing more of it….take care…
Thank you I appreciate the support!
I can so relate to what you are saying, I am one of those people who experience ambivalence with nearly all I do and come across. A constant war between heart and head at any given time.
First, thank you for stopping by my blog. i hope you will continue to visit. The topics you write about are intriguing and I commend your approach to these issues. I really like this article, and you are so very on cue and honest about what you are feeling.I also love the conclusion you came to. In my own experience with love love and hate, I came to appreciate the twin emotions in a way I would have never dreamed. I realized that there could be no knowledge of love without hate, and that hate could help initiate a motivation to love with more depth and intelligence. This didn’t always help the powerful feelings of both sentiments. But I will say it helped much of the confusion, and helped me put things in a better perspective. We have all loved deeply. We have all deeply loved. We have also been extremely angry,and even hated, as we have all hurt another person deeply. So, if we are in love, and that person wounds us deeply, or we see that person get hurt, what is it besides sadness that we feel? It is anger. Why? Because when we love we leave ourselves open in a fragile way. And we could not experience the pain or the anger if we did not love so much. Hate/anger is an emotion of self preservation, and we are all born with this innate sense from the beginning.
In short, that is my own personal conclusion on this topic in a nutshell, and I wanted to share that with you, since you unselfishly shared yours with the world. As a matter of fact, I will continue the giving and pass along the experience with my own blog to the world. Thanks for your inspiring post. Until next time…..:)
Love and light, Celeste.
Sorry for all the typing errors. I was trying to do 2 things at once and didn’t proof read like I should. 🙂